Hello,
Thank you for clicking to read my blog post (the first one in FOREVER) I always start out by apologising that I haven’t written anything for a long time but I promise I won’t this time, not because I know it’s boring but to be honest with you I haven’t had a lot to talk about. As you all may know 2017 was not my year. From the very beginning of 2017 I had to deal with life changing events (my Type 1 Diagnosis) and I really feel that 2017 was the year that has truly shaped me as a young women. It has taught me so much about myself, both the good and the bad. It also taught me a lot about the people around me. At the beginning of the year I was in a bad place, my Diagnosis hit me really hard, a lot harder than I let on to everyone around me. I feel like I never had time to accept the diagnosis myself because the people around me were trying to accept it and I wanted them to think that I was ok, I didn’t want them to worry about me, but by doing this I never gave myself time and by not giving myself time I put myself in a really bad place physically and mentally. In many ways I really let myself go, my anxiety was sky high all year and I started to feel as if I didn’t know what I wanted out of my life anymore. It sounds pathetic I know and some of you are probably thinking “give it a rest now your not dying and there are people a lot worse off in the world” and I totally get that. There are people who are suffering from things a lot worse than me and I do try and tell myself that every day but when you have a chronic illness that really does control your life - it is hard and I am a firm believer that you shouldn’t judge other people for how they handle their own problems. Everyone handles things differently. Some people are better than others and I am not afraid to say that sometimes I feel like giving up and letting the illness take over me so I don’t have to deal with it anymore but most of the time I get on with it. I look around me and I remind myself how lucky I am to be alive with eyes that can see, ears that can hear and legs that can walk as well as having a loving group of family and friends who I know will always care for me.
What I am getting at from all this is that 2017 taught me that you can get through just about anything with a strong and loving support system. Family and friends are everything. For 2018 I have set myself so many goals that I want to reach by the end of the year. My main ones being putting my health and fitness first and also working on my anxiety so that I can finally stop doubting myself and begin working towards my dreams. It is sad that something so huge had to happen in order for me to find myself but I am so excited to see what the future holds when I really put my mind towards something I want. I have always given up on goals 2 weeks in but I refuse to let anything stop me this year and I am grateful that the universe through me in this direction.
I hope you all have an amazing 2018 and that it is filled with copious amounts of joy, love and happiness. The world is your oyster!
Love from Leah X
Tuesday 16 January 2018
Tuesday 25 July 2017
Type 1 Diabetes - My Diagnosis
Well, it's been a while!
I used to start blog posts with "sorry its been so long" or "its been a while" but this time it really has been a while, I can't even remember the last time I opened up my blog and write a blog post. However that doesn't mean I haven't had so many idea's going around and around in my head but life just gets in the way and as I am about to explain below my life over the past 6 months has definitly taken a massive turn, not specifically for the worst but a lot has changed and I have taken a lot of time out to try and get to grips with my new life style and the person that I am today, even though I am still not 100% there I am definitly on my way and I am enjoying learning new things about myself on a daily basis.
I used to start blog posts with "sorry its been so long" or "its been a while" but this time it really has been a while, I can't even remember the last time I opened up my blog and write a blog post. However that doesn't mean I haven't had so many idea's going around and around in my head but life just gets in the way and as I am about to explain below my life over the past 6 months has definitly taken a massive turn, not specifically for the worst but a lot has changed and I have taken a lot of time out to try and get to grips with my new life style and the person that I am today, even though I am still not 100% there I am definitly on my way and I am enjoying learning new things about myself on a daily basis.
As many of you will know if you follow me on social media in Febraury I was very suddenly diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. I have had a number of people message me on my social media asking me questions such as "how did you know?" "what did it feel like?" "what is diabetes?" "what is type 1?" "what's the difference between type 1 and type 2?" "did you eat to much sugar?" so below I am going to explain to you all how I came to be diganosed with this condition and my life leading upto this diagnosis and hopefully open many minds to how it occurs.
Myself and my partner Tommy had a weekend in Amsterdam planned for valentines day in February, in the weeks leading upto this from around the middle of January my body started to feel different, I was constantly tired, constantly! My body was exhausted, in the mornings it was a struggle to wake up, all day all I could think about was sleep and early nights/lying in my bed was all I craved 24/7 however as I work in London and I had a long commute every day I just assumed this was starting to takes its toll and ignored the fact that my body couldnt function without atleast 9 hours sleep.
My appetite was gone - for anyone that knows me they will know that this is a big indicator to me not being well as I cant lie I LOVE food. My stomach couldn't take any type of food, I just didnt have an appetite, ever. Not even for a nandoes and I am ALWAYS up for a Nandoes.
I was drinking 5-6 litres of water a day, ANYTHING liquid that caught my eye, I drank it. I was thirsy constantly and I could never get enough, no matter how much I drank I always needed more and more and more, there was no barrier. This then lead to my 3rd symptom below -
I was waking up 3-4 times a nigh to go to the toilet, my bladder was constantly full due to the amount of liquid I was consuming (this is one of the main symptoms of Diabetes, along with the constant thirst) however It still didn't register to me that I could have Diabetes.
As the weeks went on my symptoms persisted however my body started to drastically detiriate and I started to go into a Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This is where my body started to completly run out of insulin which caused ketones to rise in my body causing my body to break down fat for energy, this caused me to loose almost 2 stone within the space of 2 1/2 weeks, if Ketoacidosis is not treated early enough it can be life threatning.
The week before we were due to leave for our weekend away to Amsterdam I started having trouble breathing, I was constantly out of breathe and the littlest of chores completly took my breath away. My breath STUNK (not nice I know) but my breathe became really unpleasent and this was caused by the build up of acid within my body, this also caused me to get sevre dry mouth which woke me up most nights.
Even though I experienced all of these symptoms I thought I had a cold and I still never even thought to check what else it could be as you never think these things could happen to you right?
The day we left for Amsterdam (we drove there) I slept the whole 7 hour journey as I was so exhausted and my body was slowly giving up on me (again I thought I just had a bad cold) We arrived at the hotel and I physically could not make it from the car to the hotel without assistance from Tommy. All energy had exscaped me and the Ketoacidosis started to take over. I threw acid and blood up 6 or 7 times and I had excruciating pain in my lower back where my Kindeys were starting to fail, I then passed out and my boyfriend had to rush me to hospital where I was taken into intensive care due to my blood sugars being at 47 which is fatal and it needed to be treated urgently for me to survive (a normal persons blood sugar is between 4-7) I was in intensive care for 3 days where I was brought around and my blood sugar levels were put under control by the AMAZING doctors and nurses at the St Lucas Andreas Hospital. This is when I was told I had Type 1 Diabetes - I was kept in hospital over in Amsterdam for a week until I was stable enough to be flown home. Now my daily life is testing my blood sugar levels as many as 10 times a day, injecting myself with insulin before I eat any type of carb and giving myself a dose background insulin to help me stay stable through the night and day. It is not a walk in the park and I am now my own dietician as I have to count ALL carbs that I eat to work out my insulin ratio and I have to measure how much insulin to give myself daily to keep myself alive/stop myself from having low and high blood sugars.
Not only has the diagnosis changed my life for ever but leading up to it and the near death experience. I urge ANYONE who feels that their body is out of tune out of the blue to visit a doctor as soon as possible as it is always better to be safe than sorry. You know your body better than anyone and if you dont feel that something is right there is a very big chance that you are right.
If anyone is suffering from similar syptoms that I have stated above - please go to a doctor. They say that Type 1 Diabetes is usually genetic however noone in my family suffers from this condition. It is an autoimmune condition which kills all insulin within your body. - IT IS NOT FROM EATING TO MUCH SUGAR!
I am hoping to be posting on here a lot more often not only with new fashion and makeup posts but now also posts on Type 1 Diabetes and life with this condition. In no way am I claiming to be an expert after only being diagnosed for 6 months however I do feel that Type 1 is a condition that a lot of people lack knowledge on as it doesn't get enough coverage.
Myself and my partner Tommy had a weekend in Amsterdam planned for valentines day in February, in the weeks leading upto this from around the middle of January my body started to feel different, I was constantly tired, constantly! My body was exhausted, in the mornings it was a struggle to wake up, all day all I could think about was sleep and early nights/lying in my bed was all I craved 24/7 however as I work in London and I had a long commute every day I just assumed this was starting to takes its toll and ignored the fact that my body couldnt function without atleast 9 hours sleep.
My appetite was gone - for anyone that knows me they will know that this is a big indicator to me not being well as I cant lie I LOVE food. My stomach couldn't take any type of food, I just didnt have an appetite, ever. Not even for a nandoes and I am ALWAYS up for a Nandoes.
I was drinking 5-6 litres of water a day, ANYTHING liquid that caught my eye, I drank it. I was thirsy constantly and I could never get enough, no matter how much I drank I always needed more and more and more, there was no barrier. This then lead to my 3rd symptom below -
I was waking up 3-4 times a nigh to go to the toilet, my bladder was constantly full due to the amount of liquid I was consuming (this is one of the main symptoms of Diabetes, along with the constant thirst) however It still didn't register to me that I could have Diabetes.
As the weeks went on my symptoms persisted however my body started to drastically detiriate and I started to go into a Diabetic Ketoacidosis. This is where my body started to completly run out of insulin which caused ketones to rise in my body causing my body to break down fat for energy, this caused me to loose almost 2 stone within the space of 2 1/2 weeks, if Ketoacidosis is not treated early enough it can be life threatning.
The week before we were due to leave for our weekend away to Amsterdam I started having trouble breathing, I was constantly out of breathe and the littlest of chores completly took my breath away. My breath STUNK (not nice I know) but my breathe became really unpleasent and this was caused by the build up of acid within my body, this also caused me to get sevre dry mouth which woke me up most nights.
Even though I experienced all of these symptoms I thought I had a cold and I still never even thought to check what else it could be as you never think these things could happen to you right?
The day we left for Amsterdam (we drove there) I slept the whole 7 hour journey as I was so exhausted and my body was slowly giving up on me (again I thought I just had a bad cold) We arrived at the hotel and I physically could not make it from the car to the hotel without assistance from Tommy. All energy had exscaped me and the Ketoacidosis started to take over. I threw acid and blood up 6 or 7 times and I had excruciating pain in my lower back where my Kindeys were starting to fail, I then passed out and my boyfriend had to rush me to hospital where I was taken into intensive care due to my blood sugars being at 47 which is fatal and it needed to be treated urgently for me to survive (a normal persons blood sugar is between 4-7) I was in intensive care for 3 days where I was brought around and my blood sugar levels were put under control by the AMAZING doctors and nurses at the St Lucas Andreas Hospital. This is when I was told I had Type 1 Diabetes - I was kept in hospital over in Amsterdam for a week until I was stable enough to be flown home. Now my daily life is testing my blood sugar levels as many as 10 times a day, injecting myself with insulin before I eat any type of carb and giving myself a dose background insulin to help me stay stable through the night and day. It is not a walk in the park and I am now my own dietician as I have to count ALL carbs that I eat to work out my insulin ratio and I have to measure how much insulin to give myself daily to keep myself alive/stop myself from having low and high blood sugars.
Not only has the diagnosis changed my life for ever but leading up to it and the near death experience. I urge ANYONE who feels that their body is out of tune out of the blue to visit a doctor as soon as possible as it is always better to be safe than sorry. You know your body better than anyone and if you dont feel that something is right there is a very big chance that you are right.
If anyone is suffering from similar syptoms that I have stated above - please go to a doctor. They say that Type 1 Diabetes is usually genetic however noone in my family suffers from this condition. It is an autoimmune condition which kills all insulin within your body. - IT IS NOT FROM EATING TO MUCH SUGAR!
I am hoping to be posting on here a lot more often not only with new fashion and makeup posts but now also posts on Type 1 Diabetes and life with this condition. In no way am I claiming to be an expert after only being diagnosed for 6 months however I do feel that Type 1 is a condition that a lot of people lack knowledge on as it doesn't get enough coverage.
Thursday 6 October 2016
Thigh high season
So who else is happy that the weather is finally feeling autumnal? My favourite time of year, I love everything about it, crisp winter mornings, bonfires, fireworks, big jumpers, egg nog lattes, Christmas, Halloween and if course thigh high boots! Especially these insane nude pair from Lamoda, 8 can't take them off!
Tuesday 23 February 2016
Throw on and go..
Throw on and go with this oversized t shirt dress from Missguided. Now you all know how much I love the effortlessly cool look when it comes to putting outfits together at the moment and this Missguided piece has to be one of my all time favs!
You really can't go wrong when styling this wardrobe must have, team it with a pair of black thigh highs and a biker jacket like me, which by the way are by far the best pair I own. Am I the only person that usually finds over the knee boots to fall down their legs when they walk? I have been searching far and wide for a pair which I can walk for miles in so obviously you can understand my excitment when Linzi were kind enough to gift me these. Or even team with a pair of ripped jeans and some converse for that perfect casual day look!
Missguided Dress - Click here
Linzi Boots - Click here
Jacket - H&M Last season
Sunglasses - Click here
Saturday 20 February 2016
Miss Pap must have..
Ok so I think that my bomber jacket obsession is now getting slightly out of control, espically when they are so affordable at Miss Pap. I love how effortlessly cool bomber jackets are, the simplist of outfits such as mine below can instantly be transformed by throwing one on. My personal favourite from Miss Pap has to be this Joanna khaki long line one, not only is khaki one of my favourite colours but it is perfect for staying on trend whilst keeping warm at this time of year.
Jacket - Click here
Jacket - Click here
Monday 15 February 2016
Grey for days
Happy Monday! I hope that you have all had a lovely weekend, even if the weather is in the minus's right now. I have been lucky enough to have a four day weekend this week so I thought that there was no better time than to get a whole day in of blogging some new outfits for you all!
Now I dont know about you but right now my whole wardrobe is all about basics! I love an effortlessly cool outfit and styling basic pieces together such as these Pretty Little Thing bargains that I have styled below. I am also building up a rather large collection of bomber jackets, espically when they are only £22 at Miss Pap! What's better than being comfy yet stylish?
P.S These insane heels are only £12.99 right now! Get your hands on them while you can!
Bomber Jacket - Click here
PLT Top - Click here
PLT Skirt - Click here
Heels (only £12.99 right now) - Click here
Now I dont know about you but right now my whole wardrobe is all about basics! I love an effortlessly cool outfit and styling basic pieces together such as these Pretty Little Thing bargains that I have styled below. I am also building up a rather large collection of bomber jackets, espically when they are only £22 at Miss Pap! What's better than being comfy yet stylish?
P.S These insane heels are only £12.99 right now! Get your hands on them while you can!
PLT Skirt - Click here
Heels (only £12.99 right now) - Click here
Sunday 20 December 2015
NYE With Boohoo..
Happy Sunday! Who is super excited for Christmas? This is by far my favourite time of year, I just love the festive feeling, big jumpers, hats, mulled wine, mice pies and not forgetting all things sparkly!
I have been so excited to share this look with you below as I have fallen so utterly and completely in love with this dress! I was lucky enough to be contacted by Boohoo who asked me to style my idea of a perfect NYE outfit. This time of year, especially New Years Eve, is the perfect time of year to go all out with the sparkle and this dress just screams sass, not to mention it hugs your figure in all the right places allowing you to look and feel even more amazing!
Nothing make's me feel more perfect around this time of year other than pampering myself and wearing as many sparkles as possible! If you don't do it around Christmas and New years, then when will you? So when choosing what to wear this NYE don't forgot to check out Boohoo's party dresses!
Boohoo Party Dresses - Click here
I have been so excited to share this look with you below as I have fallen so utterly and completely in love with this dress! I was lucky enough to be contacted by Boohoo who asked me to style my idea of a perfect NYE outfit. This time of year, especially New Years Eve, is the perfect time of year to go all out with the sparkle and this dress just screams sass, not to mention it hugs your figure in all the right places allowing you to look and feel even more amazing!
Nothing make's me feel more perfect around this time of year other than pampering myself and wearing as many sparkles as possible! If you don't do it around Christmas and New years, then when will you? So when choosing what to wear this NYE don't forgot to check out Boohoo's party dresses!
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